Waiting

Waiting...

There is nothing worse than waiting, whether its the bus, an exam result or a life changing decision. 

But waiting is a game, and as in any game, there is a goal or outcome to achieve, a set of obstacles to make it harder to get to your goal, and a set of rules you have to abide.

In the waiting game, the goal or outcome is obvious, so no need to define it. The obstacles are not many, mainly it is just time. The rules of the game are defined by the players, and if you are the only one waiting, then you can define your rules as you wish.

So the main thing in this game is time, you can feel every second of it, you can feel it going through, draining you and sometimes killing you. Still you are sticking to game, no other option but to play it, and wait.

I am an expert in the waiting game, i have been on the waiting before i was even born! 9 months waiting in my mother womb, then years more waiting to say my first words: i do not want to play this game! They did not get it at the time! And since, everyday i am waiting, during the day i am waiting the night to hide in my sleep, and in the night waiting the day to run away of my dreams. 

The other day i decided that i no longer want to play this game, i want to stop waiting, looked at my options and found that to achieve that i have to give up life, so since, i have been waiting death!